aku bingung bagaimana cara mengungkapkannya. serius. ingin aku ceritakan semua. sampai habis. tak tersisa. akan tetapi, sekali lagi, tangan ini tak sanggup menuliskan semuanya. mulut ini tak kuasa menceritakannya. dan semua anggota tubuhku tak bisa menjelaskan, menggambarkan. kecuali hati ini yang bisa. tapi siapa yang mengetahui isi hati ini? kecuali saya pribadi dan ALLAH SWT.
aku tak tahu bagaimana cara mengunggungkapkan isi hati ini. ada rasa cemburu, iri, dengki, sombong, dan .... ah, aku tak sanggup mengungkapkannya.
entah kenapa apa menuliskan seperti ini? aku tak tahu.
ingin aku menuliskan semua tentang sahabat. sahabat yang aku dambakan. ketika bertemu selalu senyuman yang aku berikan. seluruh cerita aku utarakan. dan semua aku berikan. tapi terkadang aku marah padanya. ketika aku tahu dia bukan lagi sahabat yang aku inginkan. karakternya, sifatnya, tingkah lakunya, dan semuanya. tapi aku masih ingin dia sebagai sahabatku. aku hanya dia mengerti apa yang ada dalam hati ini. yah, hati ini yang dalam.
sahabat, masakan kau lupa aku pernah berkata, "dahan itu tempat bergantung terlalu banyak kerangga menghuni"
kau bertahan kau melawan,
kau xkalah kerengga xmenang,
dan kau pn melompat "SELAMAT"
tinggal aku sendiri di dahan kian rapuh,
kerengga makin ligat "SAKIT"..Sejuta rangkaian kata,terwujud bagai memori,untuk seorang sahabat,yang setia mengisi hati dan hari,perdamaian ini ,jangan kau kencingi,jagalah arti kata 'peace',yang kau tulis,di dinding kamarku,perdamaian ini ,jangan jadi belenggu,Aku orang bebas,kau orang bebas,kita bebas menentukan,kemana langkah kita tertuju,
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Tentang Sahabat
Posted by -jebull- at 11:26 AM 0 comments
miss u again.. SHIT !
Hello there the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in backround of the morgue
The unsespecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like @!#@$!# and !^%^@ if we want
Where you can always find me
And we'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never end
Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness comes creeping on so haunting everytime
And as I stared I counted the webs from all the spiders
catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
stop this pain tonight
To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold, Utopian dream.
You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said "I miss you"?
I see your picture.
I smell your skin on
The empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days,
But already I'm wasting away.
I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care,
And I miss you badly~
I can not forget you even for a moment..
Posted by -jebull- at 2:57 AM 4 comments
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Happy Moment
i'm so happy. Cause today I found my friends.
they're in my head. I'm so ugly. But that's ok.
cause so are you. We've broke our mirrors.
sunday morning. Is everyday for all I care.
and I'm not scared. Light my candles. In a daze cause I've found god.
i'm so lonely. And that's ok.cause today
i shaved my head. And I'm not sad, and just maybe
i'm to blame for all I've heard. And I'm not sure.
i'm so excited. I can't wait to meet you there.
aind I don't care. I'm so horny. But that's ok. My will is good.
i like it. I'm not gonna crack.
i miss you. I'm not gonna crack.
i love you.I'm not gonna crack.
i killed you. I'm not gonna crack.
thank you has made me feel happy for a while~
Posted by -jebull- at 1:35 AM 0 comments
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Sebab-sebab lelaki menjadi ‘kaki perempuan’
Posted by -jebull- at 11:38 PM 2 comments
THANKS !
Posted by -jebull- at 9:59 AM 0 comments
18sx
Asmara Orang Pencen
Di suatu malam yang dingin, di dalam sebuah bilik yang sederhana
besar, diatas katil....... sepasang suami isteri yang telah lanjutusia baru masuk tidur.
Suaminya telah mula mengantuk tapi isterinya terbangkit perasaan
ghairah malam itu....
Si isteri bersuara,
"Dulu-dulu tu..... abang selalu pegang tangan saya bila kita nak tido."
Suaminya dengan separuh sedar, menggenggam tangan isterinya, lepas tu
mula mengantuk
semula.
Beberapa ketika lepas tu, si isteri bersuara lagi,
"Kemudian tu.... abang selalu cium saya."
Si suami dengan rasa terganggu, mengangkat kepalanya dan menyentuh
bibirnya ke pipi si
isteri.
Lepas tu sambung tido balik.
Selepas beberapa saat, si isteri bersuara lagi,
"Kemudian tu.... abang selalu gigit-gigit leher saya......."
Dengan perasaan marah dan geram, si suami melontar selimutnya dan
bangun dari katil
tu.
Si isteri bertanya, "Abang nak gi mana tu?"
Dengan marah suaminya menjawab,
"Nak gi amik gigi la ni!!!"
papa n mama di bilik
Di suatu pagi selepas subuh, seorang anak lelaki keluar dari biliknya dan bertanya pada neneknya:
"Mereka masih di dalam bilik..." neneknya menjawab.
Anak itu tertawa kemudian sarapan sendirian lalu pergi sekolah.
"Di mana Papa dan Mama?"
"Mereka masih di dalam bilik," neneknya kembali menjawab.
Anak itu tertawa geli, lalu menghabiskan makan tengaharinya dan pergi bermain.
"Di mana Papa dan Mama?"
"Masih di dalam bilik" jawab nenek.
Anak itu tertawa geli.
"Kenapa dari tadi nenek perhatikan kamu ketawa saja?!" tanya neneknya dengan nada tinggi.
Si anak menjawab,
"Semalam Papa masuk ke bilik saya untuk meminta gel pelembab kulit, tapi saya bagi gam Super Glue..."
Posted by -jebull- at 8:55 AM 2 comments
KAMU YANG DAHULU~
Posted by -jebull- at 8:09 AM 1 comments
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Posted by -jebull- at 1:04 AM 6 comments
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
"Ayah...pulangkan balik tangan Ita..."
Posted by -jebull- at 10:49 AM 2 comments
Monday, October 25, 2010
I'll never get over you getting over me
I hear you're taking the town again,
Having a good time,
With all your good time friends,
I don't think that you think of me,
You're on your own now,
And I'm alone and free,
I know that I should get on with my life,
But a life lived without you could never be right,
As long as the stars shine down from the heaven,
As long as the river runs to the sea,
I'll never get over you getting over me,
I tried to smile so the hurt won't show,
Tell everybody I was glad to see you go,
But the tears just won't go away,
Loneliness found me looks like it's here to stay,
I know that I ought to find someone new,
But all I found is my self always thinking of you,
As long as the stars shine down from the heaven,
As long as the river runs to the sea,
I'll never get over you getting over me,
Oh no matter what I do,
Each nights a life time to live through,
I can't go on like this,
I need your touch,
You're the only one I ever loved,
And as long as the stars shine down from the heaven,
As long as the river runs to the sea,
I'll never get over you, getting over,
I'll never get over you,
I'll never get over you getting over me.........
Posted by -jebull- at 11:47 AM 0 comments
Sunday, October 24, 2010
DRUG ??
Posted by -jebull- at 1:26 PM 1 comments
FARRA WAHIDA
Posted by -jebull- at 9:16 AM 9 comments
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Friday, October 22, 2010
Feelings that
Terbayang wajahmu yang redup sayu
Kudusnya kasih yang engkau hamparkan
Bagaikan laut yang tak bertepian
Biarpun kepahitan telah engkau rasakan
Tak pula kau merasa jemu
Mengasuh dan mendidik kami semua anakmu
Dari kecil hingga dewasa
Hidupmu kau korbankan
Biarpun dirimu yang telah terkorban
Tak dapat kubalasi akan semua ini
Semoga Tuhan memberkati kehidupanmu ibu
Ibu kau ampunilah dosaku
Andainya pernah menghiris hatimu
Restumu yang amatlah aku harapkanKerana disitu letak syurgaku
Tabahnya melayani kenakalan anakmu
Mengajarku erti kesabaranKau bagai pelita di kala aku kegelapan
Menyuluh jalan kehidupan
Kasihanilah Tuhan ibu yang telah melahirkan diriku
Bagaikan kasih ibu sewaktu kecilku
Moga bahgia ibu di dunia dan di akhirat sana...
Kasih sayangmu sungguh bernilaiItulah harta yang engkau berikan
Ibu... dengarlah rintih hatiku untukmu ibu
Posted by -jebull- at 11:56 AM 2 comments
Thursday, October 21, 2010
do it ~
with a thousand fantasy
vigorously
without despair
without caving
without looking back
without hurting those around them
without complaining
without chaos
with a thousand hopes
no waste the days to come
without frustrating anyone
without causing problems
without disturbing other people's lives
vigorously
are always right
not act in haste
discard old attitudes to the new attitude
will think twice before doing something
Posted by -jebull- at 11:59 AM 0 comments